Social media is a funny thing. It's good for staying in touch with your friends and family, and at the same it's like a medium you can use to check on the people you don't or can't have in your life anymore. Like your ex, for example.
I was in a very toxic relationship once. I was with him for 3 years, 3 whole freaking years. I was a completely different person back then. I did not have love and respect for myself. I was emotionally abused, and it lead to physical abuse towards the end of the relationship. I really thought that it was love. I thought if it doesn't hurt or get difficult, then it's not love. The relationship destroyed me. I was ruined for another two years after it ended. I was relieved when it was over, but you can't just recover from that. You need time to heal.
5 years later, I became a new person. In some weird, twisted way, it was a revival. 5 years after I ended the relationship, I was so much more happier. My life was not perfect but I didn't care. I found myself. I had so much love for myself that I couldn't share it with someone else. Until I found this wonderful guy who is now my boyfriend. He is the complete opposite of my abusive ex. I feel safe and at home when I'm with him. He's my best friend and I feel so lucky to have him in my life.
Anyway, I found my ex's on social media and I was shocked when I found out that he got married and had a baby. He was and is still a monster. I was so scared for his wife and child... For their sake, I really hope that he had changed. Knowing that he had moved on, he has a family, I feel this weird feeling that I can't describe. I still talk to our mutual friends so I know what his situation is like. Again, I'm very blessed. I have a man that loves me for who I am, so crazy in love with me and not afraid to show it. I feel the very same about it...... and I am happy to know that I dodged a bullet
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